This week was Song Kran break in Bangkok. Basically it is our spring break but for the Thais, it is a week long water fight celebrating New Years. With temperatures reaching over 100F we decided to take Marley to her first movie. We had watched the movie Rio a few years ago so we took her to see Rio 2. We bought tickets, drinks, and popcorn and entered the movie cinema after taking some first time pictures.
Often in life we hear that experiencing something for the first time trumps everything else. I found myself indulging those thoughts as I watched Marley experience her first movie. She was scared to enter the movie at first because of the loud noises and total darkness of the cinema. Once we got to our seats she clung on to me while staring at the screen with a wide eye expression. After about 30 minutes she settled in and started eating her popcorn. Occasionally she would jump when something dramatic happened, but she never fully relaxed during the entire movie. She was literally on the edge of her seat during the entire movie.
Later that night I was thinking about how many movies I had watched in my life and how often I am unmoved by the experience. I considered how much fun it would be to watch a movie for the first time again and embrace all the emotions Marley experienced that night. This led me to thinking about other things in life, especially my relationships with Jana and God. Those awe moments I first encountered when I became a Christian and when I married Jana are no longer present in my life. Is that a bad thing? Should I crave those ‘edge of my seat moments’ with Jana and God that are difficult to capture after first encounters? I began to look at Moses after his awe moment with God at the burning bush.
Now the Lord had said to Moses in Midian, “Go back to Egypt, for all those who wanted to kill you are dead.” (Ex 4:19)
The Lord said to Moses, “When you return to Egypt, see that you perform before Pharaoh all the wonders I have given you the power to do. (Ex 4:21)
Then the Lord said to Moses, “Now you will see what I will do to Pharaoh: Because of my mighty hand he will let them go; because of my mighty hand he will drive them out of his country.” (Ex 6:1)
Then the Lord said to Moses, 11 “Go, tell Pharaoh king of Egypt to let the Israelite go out of his country.” (Ex 6:10)
None of these passages have that awe moment that Moses had with the burning bush. Imagine encountering God as a burning bush. Wouldn’t God just telling you to do something, after the burning bush encounter, fail in comparison? The burning bush would be an edge of your seat experience, but lets look past the excitement of experiencing something for the first time. The difference we see with Moses after the burning bush is he talks with God. Moses and God talk like two people in a meaningful relationship. That is the difference in regards to our desperation for awe moments in our lives. We don’t need repeated awe moments if we are in a fruitful relationship with our creator.
Of course the danger we must always resist is complacency. After twelve years of marriage Jana and I have very few first time moments in our relationship. BUT we have moments that easily trump those first time awe moments. Our relationship has progressed to something we could have never imagined the first day we got married. The same should be true with our creator. As believers we need to be deepening our relationship with God on a daily basis. The awe moments are only temporary but a relationship is for eternity. Don’t become discouraged if you are not experiencing “edge of your seat” moments in your daily life. Instead focus on things you can do to build your relationship with God. I often compare my marriage with my commitment with God because I believe it requires the same dedication to prosper. Spend time with God, talk with God, pray with God, and then those previous awe moments will fail in comparison to your daily walk with your savior.